If you are someone who has been traumatized in therapy, it might be difficult to get help.
Traumatic experience in therapy might make you hesitant to seek professional help again in the first place, but, even if you break through natural fear of getting hurt again, it would be a hell of a task to find a therapist specifically trained to work with patients previously traumatized in therapy.
Therapists are not trained to work with this type of trauma. The reasons for that are a topic for a separate discussion, but regardless of the reasons, the reality is what it is. It is virtually impossible to find a therapist who really “gets it”, who can truly understand what it means to be harmed by a therapist and who knows how to work with this kind of trauma. The best you can hope for is to find a fairly compassionate practitioner who simply knows how to listen and will at least try to understand your experience, which is also a no small task.
I am also not aware of any off or online support groups for those who have been hurt by their therapy experiences that are safe enough to start a healing process. There are some online groups and forums (very few) that declare themselves as support groups for survivors of “therapy abuse” or “therapist abuse” and I’ve been to all of them. While you may get a certain amount of support there you may also get hurt very badly which happened to me and which is the last thing you need when you are already hurting.
Those groups are not facilitated by trained moderators whose task is to keep the group safe for everyone to talk about their experiences. They are run by survivors themselves none of whom is in a stable and a healthy enough mental state to ensure the group safety. It may be beneficial to hang out in such a group initially just to see that you are not alone with your pain and that there are many others who went through similar experiences. This, in and of itself, can be very validating and can become a starting point of your recovery. It’s important, however, not to stay in the group just for the sake of being a part of the group and for the fear of being alone again, as this will force you to tolerate the conditions that create obstacles for your healing.
You may also want to try some alternative healing methods such as body work, Reiki, yoga, acupuncture, Ayurveda and so on. There is a big variety of alternative healing practices that might be very helpful depending on how qualified the practitioner who guides you through the process is.
Keep in mind though that a good health practitioner, whether traditional or alternative, is not easy to find, and, also that every method and every healer has their limitations and can take you just so far.
Recovery, in my experience, is a long chain of trials and errors. Try anything and everything you feel might be helpful to you in the moment but don’t expect anything to be a permanent solution. It is very important to detect the moment when a particular practitioner or a particular method is no longer serving you and to move on. For that to happen you need to be an ultimate judge of what is in your best interests at this time. Don’t let anyone decide what is best for you or to influence your choices. Let others guide you so far and so long as you find their guidance helpful but trust your own instincts in making decisions. The chances are that you were harmed in therapy in the first place because you trusted the therapist more than you trusted your own feelings, intuition and judgment, and so trusting yourself is the first thing to focus on if you want to avoid harm in the future. It doesn’t matter if you make mistakes. It is more beneficial to make mistakes and to learn from them than to entrust your life to someone else. Learning from your own mistakes makes you more confident in your ability to navigate your life which facilitates the recovery.
Unfortunately, I can’t suggest anything else at this time because, as I said, there is no professional help available out there for your type of problem. Not yet. There is no magic bullet to deal with this as with many other things that life throws at us. Self-trust and the method of trial and errors are the only tools available for you at this time. The only other thing I can share on this topic, which I will do in a separate post, is taking a spiritual approach to recovery, but this is something that has worked for me and, therefore, subjective.
With that, best of luck on your healing path.